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Rebellious is what definitely a word that I would describe my eating habits for the last couple of days. I have just been so down about this entire weight loss thing. I think back to when I used to weigh only 135 and now I would have to lose like..well I am not going to say, but a lot of weight. I feel like people are constantly staring at me. I see them stare at my arms and my stomach. It is just isn't encouraging at all. I am fitting into some clothes better, but others I am not and that gets me down too. I know that losing weight isn't something that happens over night, but I can't help but want it to be that way. I don't know sometimes I feel like just giving up, but I know that it isn't really in me to completely give up.
I see these people that just had babies and I am like gosh I am still so fat and it has been six months. It is like please don't look at me because this is so embarrassing. I don't know...
I can't even tell you what I ate over the last four days since I blogged. It wasn't great, but not completely horrible either. I get most of my workouts in, but not all of them.
I weighed myself on this morning and I had lost a pound. So, I have lost four total. Not that great, but I guess at least it is something.

23

Today I finally got over myself. I went to the gym lifted and then did ten minutes on the elipictal because the treadmills were taken up. Then someone got off the treadmill and I ran on there for ten minutes. It felt good to run.

Breakfast: Egg/toast
Snack: granola bar
Lunch: yogurt and string cheese
Snack: orange/ string cheese
Dinner: Eggs/toast
Dessert: 100 calorie pack

22

Still feeling crappy about gaining a pound today. I didn't write anything down that I ate because I was being stubborn and was quite grumpy.

21

This week was not a good week. I gained a pound. I felt really great all week too and then I got on the scale and saw that. So, what did I do? I ate like crap all day. I am so such an emotional eater!

20

Today I ate fairly well and I did all three levels of the cardio workout from my Biggest Loser dvd.

Breakfast: 2 pancakes
Snack: string cheese
Lunch: Subway sand.
Snack: yogury
Dinner: Chicken, rice, veggie
Dessert: muffin

19

This morning I woke up and went on a run. It was a very long one because it was super windy out. Probably about a mile and half. I stopped twice and only walked about a block and half each time. Running outside is so different. On the treadmill I do ten minutes and I am breathing hard, but I feel like I could totally keep going. But, today I was like oh my gosh I am so winded. I think my main thing is that I don't stretch very much before I go out and then my legs just feel so heavy. So, I definitely need to work on that. I also worked in the yard today and I know that burns some calories. I remember reading somewhere the exact amount, but now I can't remember.

Breakfast: Eggs/ 1 piece of toast, and three strawberries
Snack: string cheese
Lunch: Sub sandwich with Baked Lays chips
Snack: myoplex lite bar...and a blended sugar free mocha
Dinner: Hot& Spicy chicken, peas, and brown rice
Dessert: strawberries

18

Today I didn't get into the gym to lift. By the time I got my hair done it was well into the afternoon. Plus I wanted to enjoy the nice weather that we were having since it is so rare. I did go on a walk with Matt, but I didn't feel like I really did anything. We went out to dinner and I did well with eating again.

Breakfast: Eggs/cereal
Snack: protein bar
Lunch: left over pasta
Snack: string cheese
Dinner: marinated broiled shrimp, rice pilaf, and veggies... and I had two bites of Matt's soup.
Dessert: four strawberries